Monday, March 20, 2006

Instant Panic

Doctors comfort
sounds in ultrawaves
show us healthy movement.

Who delegates
the right to make me

Simplify your
explanations...don't take my/your

5 inch needles
into my stomach
just to find out if you're...

...going to be normal...
...going to be smart...
...going to need assistance...

They quote

"2 percent! 2 percent chance he'll have Downs Syndrome...but if you think of it this way, Mrs. E, its a 98 percent chance he'll be normal. Doesn't that sound so much better? Don't blame yourself, its a genetic fluke. There's nothing you could have done..."

but I wonder (every second of the day/night)...

Could I have taken my vitamins with better frequency?

Did I take enough folic acid?

Am I too old to have a baby?

...I have prayed outloud for days. I won't stop anytime soon.


Dr.Ajax said...

in my lifespan class, we learned that people over 35 shouldnt have babies, cuz then they'll have down syndrome babies who won't become future leaders and won't steal other countries' resources.

my teacher is russian and scary.

Mr Anigans said...

i don't eat babies

Maybe So said...

a few hundred years ago in some cultures, Down syndrome babies were considered prophets.

Laurie said...

Everything will be fine. If I ever divorce and remarry I would consider having another baby and I'm 35. I know how scared you must be!! I'm praying for you!!!!


Holy Schmidt said...

For the love of rice krispy treats...what's the link to the prego blog? Throw it up on my comments.